I'm both utterly grossed out but yet I do understand where he/she is coming from, we have all seen it before. I agree with the adage now- "Never judge a book by its cover." I feel like just speaking to a councillor or like with someone that won't judge me.
Saturday, July 31, 2010 12:15 PM
I never expected this. I really never ever expected this to ever happen. I don't want it to happen. It feels so surreal but I really want to say it out and clarify this matter but I can't. The stakes at risk are ever so high. I don't want to contempt this person, he/she is so close to me but I really can't help but see him/her differently now. I can no longer see him/her the same as I did before because the secret about him/her is just seriously unbelievable. I can no longer trust him/her, whatever he/she does now will make me ponder and my mind is just full of desultory thoughts. I have copious amount of ideas in my mind now and it's so full I want to just spill it out. Albeit my sister feels that everything will not change but I can't help but have this gut feeling that everything will change. Why am I facing all this problems now? I just want to get out this house and leave everything behind for it's no longer the same as before. I want to trust him/her but the evidence that are present beg to differ. WHY?