When we were in Secondary school, I had this mentality that I was smart, so did my parents and my sister. But it turns out that I'm not. I'm one of those that has been spoon-fed by the teachers with ways/methods and answers. I'm like a robot, once things change I can't do it anymore. I just feel like quitting everything and do something that I really enjoy. On the other hand, I don't want to disappoint my family and myself. How contradicting.
Volunteering at ACS Barker and seeing all the young kids there playing/studying/sleeping/fighting makes me nostalgic. It's so ironic that when we were young, we always wanted to be older and have freedom. But now that we're older, we want to be a young kid and be so carefree without worries. Cycle of life is so short yet we're immersing ourselves in pointless stuff. I really want to take a break from Singapore and just leave and never come back. A society that places merits above everything. I would rather live somewhere else than here. I would rather be something else than a human. I would rather be a child forever than an adult.